00:20??

Sooo yeah...i guess i just have one of this "muse bursting out" moments, cause i just needed to post something, i mean why shouldn't i write about 30-th october, a day when i woke up with a terrible sore throat and couldn't decide whether to go to school or stay in my warm cozy bed, nevertheless of the pillow, begging me not leave it i stood up with the expectation of something special happening today, i mean what if destiny had planned a giant surprise for me and then i was gonna ruin everything by simply staying at home, where i for 100% knew nothing "exciting" would have happened.. Soo i simply sat waited for my school bus ( of course with headphones on ) and my playlist for today was exclusively depressing, creating some weird flashback scenes in my mind. I was listening to DDT - eto vse and nick cave's - into my arms, these songs kinda show me a different side of life, and even if it just lasts for 3 minutes it makes me feel like being in heaven.. So i entered the class and it was empty

just the bags of those three kids that always come early and me, i felt kinds bored and cold aswell, but despite of knowing that they were in classroom right behind ours i still didnt enter it, too lazy to start explaining why.. I mean i know why.. And HE knows why.... 

Nostalgic?..

Sooo many thoughts in my head right now, it's like there's nothing to say really, but you know those moments in your life when you just go to your boring, worthless multimedia class and your best friend shows you her new private blog, and how she posts about you and her being reallyy close posting together, and how you later on became a worthless piece of shit not really caring about your blog any more, so after failing many useless attempts of getting you interested again, she just gave up one day and started creating something what was totally PRIVATELY hers, and that made me feel a little bit nostalgic and sad about how life turns you into a who(r)le new person and introduces you to new stuff and you just don't even even remember what you valued so much in the past. But there's nothing to do about it, so at least you can just let your emotions burst into a tiny useless post instead of tears. -Katherine